Do you ever feel like you could be/should be doing something fucking amazing?! I keep saying I want to live in Mexico for a year, or explore central and South America……………I’m 24 and it’s not like I’m getting any younger. Don’t get me wrong, I love my job and everything about right now to be honest……but sometimes (and by sometimes I mean like 75% of the time) I just want to quit my, job hop on a plane…………and just fucking go. I keep saying I want to quit my job and make art…but what does that fucking mean?!! To be honest I don’t really feel like I have enough artistic talent to really go off making that statement, nor do I really consider myself an artist…. So… here’s where I answer my own question and sound unavoidably cliché as fuck!
“I just wanna quit my job and make art,” I say. “Do it” say my instigator friends (those are always good friends by the way). But what the fuck does it mean?! I’m sure most of them think I want to be a designer when I say I want to make art. And let’s face it it’s one of the only “artsy” things I really excel in and could possibly make a living off. But enough ranting and more answering.….. Let’s make art; let’s live, because life is a work of art.
Everything about the world fascinates me. It’s art when I wake up in the morning and look at the sun shining over the mountains, It’s art when I see all the field workers working, It’s art when I look at all the buildings carefully lined up in down town, It’s art when a person thinks they can make a change and decide to run for office, It’s art when a single cell can replicate and create chaos inside a person’s body. The world we live in is the best work of art I’ve even seen. So when I say I want to quit my job and make art….. I literally mean I just want to explore, see, do, experience and soak up as much as I can. Just because I’m happy where I am, doesn’t mean I’m willing to conform to where I am now, when I know there’s so much more out there.
I go through a constant struggle between wanting to explore the world, and excelling in my “career.” I equally really want both…and can feel my career choices paying off which makes it the more difficult. Why must these choices be so agonizingly hard?! One day I’m so passionate about what I do, and the next I’m convinced it’s time to just pack up and leave. Either way one thing is for sure…..we should all just make art…………. Live life to the fullest, take every opportunity that presents itself, kiss as many people as you can, try as many different foods possible, be reckless, passionate and always be present wherever you are.
-D